Ashamed?

As my previous post stated I went in the hospital for 4 days. I was ashamed, of myself, and of my weakness. The Lord tells us that we are not to be ashamed, because we have Jesus in our hearts.
Psa 25:20 "O keep my soul, and deliver me: let me not be ashamed; for I put my trust in thee."
Rom 5:5 "And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us. "
Rom 10:11 "For the scripture saith, Whosoever believeth on him shall not be ashamed. "
It was hard, but when I realized that God had put me in the hospital to not only receive help for myself, but also to help others, I got down on my knees weeping and asked for forgiveness. God did wonderful things during those 4 days. 2Ti 1:12 states that "For the which cause I also suffer these things: nevertheless I am not ashamed: for I know whom I have believed, and am persuaded that he is able to keep that which I have committed unto him against that day. "
God let this experience be an eye opener, but more importantly a soul opener. I know that God is using me to reach people who are hurting in Leavenworth, KS. I give all the glory to God.
I am now looking to the future, and praying that the Lord will help me to learn His word more each day, 2Ti 2:15 "Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth. " I know that it will take work, but I am excited about that, and praise the Lord I can be here today to do this for Him. I will post my journey and share things that God has taught me, and pray that they will be able to help those that will also be able to use them.